After a lot of soul searching, I've come to realise that my skepticism bordering on bitterness towards martial arts does not indicate a loss of faith in or passion for the arts, it is instead of symptom of too many years of air kicking and memorising the curriculum. We have been told that if we don't grade every cycle it's because we are lazy. I've had enough.
But I haven't had enough of martial arts in general. I realise there are many good clubs. I've since joined one on the side.
But here's the thing. I actually feel genuinely good about wearing my crisp white belt on my crisp white suite. I feel slightly disappointed that I have literally nothing to offer to my new club in terms of tips or techniques I've accumulated to date, but I also recognise it as a good thing, in that it means they have such a vast amount to teach me.
But I want to keep some element of stand up striking, either karate or similar. Most of my experience is in such, and as much as I'm happy to revisit basics in case I've missed something, and as much as I recognise that ego is something to be kept in check, I'm not sure I can start right back at 'this is called a basic front kick' and pretend to worship orange belts again.
So, and I appreciate this is a very open ended question, but where do I go from here?